The word above means ‘being a clown’. This is not about being a clown in literal meaning. This is being something that you do with all your heart.

Today I saw a post of my friends saying that she is now in a rural area doing her job as a researcher – I assume because she is collecting data and interviewing. However she cannot help herself not to ‘ngebadut’, her term of saying that she is teaching. It may not really teaching in a classroom, but giving instruction to a classroom. Yeah, it still counts as teaching, right?

After reading that, I remembered my aunt once said that it is difficult to find a teacher. There are many people with good qualification and experience, but finding one with the ‘heart’ to teach is difficult. I agree with that. I agree that for some people, they cannot resist themselves to not ‘ngebadut’ because that’s what their heart always tell them.

Maybe I kind of miss it. I kind of miss having that kind of interaction with students. It is not a job, it is not just something to do to have fun or to have money. It is something that needs to be done with the heart. Maybe that’s the reason that a simple cute message from my students can make me smile, because it touched my heart.

Oct 14, 2015